beyond the sun
	across the sea
	I thought the world
	belonged to me
	and headed off undaunted
	I ate too fast
	I drank too much
	stayed out too late
	could never get enough
	no passing feast
	could ever fill me up
	what it was I wanted was
	sustenance
	amphetamines
	never picked me up
	nor did bitter coffee
	from a Dixie cup
	ever enhance my living
	I wasn’t saved
	through innocence
	nor through reason
	nor through deliverance
	I tried them all
	and cast them out at once
	promising but never giving
	sustenance
	so tell me why somehow the moon is never bright enough
	and no one’s heavy load is ever light enough
	the truth was never
	true enough
	and you were never
	you enough
	god knows what I wanted
	I did the best
	that I could do
	it’s not for lack
	of loving you
	so many others
	so much worse off than us
	all that there was missing was
	sustenance
	I learned to breathe
	I learned to crawl
	I wanted more
	I wanted to have it all
	I never realized
	As everybody must
	That all that I was looking for was sustenance